3am ramblings

i don't think i make much sense at 3am.

in fact,
i don't think anyone makes much sense at 3am.


but then again, some of the best inspiration comes at 3am.


do you ever wake up in the middle of the night (let's just go with 3am), and have some huge idea. or inspiration. or even epiphany?
i know for me some of the best lyrics i've written have been the result of 3am ramblings.


maybe it's because we're so emotional by this stage that our true feelings begin to show? or maybe it's because we're then overtired from this emotion that causes us to lose our minds?
why do we even let ourselves get to this stage though?


i mean, 3am ramblings, ideas, inspirations, whatever you would like to call them - have become a fact of life. even businesses are endorsing it - kikki k even has a '3am journal'. claiming that 'some of the best ideas happen after dark.'


i suppose this is an infinite question. it's personal opinion. it's personal experience. it depends on how much you like sleep! make up your own mind.


what do you think about at 3am?

friendship

a true friend isn't something you come across very often.
sometimes you may think that someone is a true friend, but it always seems to come crashing down when you least expect it, or maybe even sometimes, you can see it coming.

yes - this has happened to me, but i believe i am a stronger person because of it.
being stronger makes me realise my true friends.
if you are a true friend, i hope that you stay that way, because there's nothing worse than losing a loved one, even if it's a mental or emotional loss rather than a physical loss.
but then you find someone. and they seem to relieve the pain a little bit.

a friend once said to me:
"people label people, call people bestfriends... i really don't like it, i don't use labels, i am against them. i've never met anyone i've been able to put a label to because i feel like they don't know me. i always thought i'd never meet someone who i would be comfortable enough to be my true self. i'd never meet someone who would always be there for me. but you are my best friend. you are that person that i am myself around, that i love to death, that whatever pain they feel, i want to feel with them. i love you."

i don't even think they realise how much this means to me.

what i believe friendship is:
trust. being with someone who you can just sit with and be silent without it being awkward. memories. being so far apart that it hurts, even though you know they are always somehow with you. someone who you don't have to even talk to that often, but you seem to know that they are there. support. a shoulder to cry on. an ear to listen, even if there isn't always an answer. no judgement. love.
there is so much more, but i won't ramble on forever.

my point is, true friends are special, and to all of my true friends:
you are truly beautiful and amazing.
i love you so much, and can't ever thank you enough for just being you.

you mean the world to me, so please, don't ever forget that.

when did this happen?

body image.

wikipedia says: body image is a term which may refer to a person's perception of his or her own physical appearance or the interpretation of the body by the brain. body image can be described as how individuals see themselves when looking in a mirror, or when picturing themselves in their mind, and their ideas about their body, such as height, shape, and weight and age.

but it's so much more than that. the fact that we look in the mirror and judge ourselves on that is completely ridiculous. we see something we don't like, and the negative thoughts begin. the negative thoughts are such a bad influence, and instead of doing something about this thing we don't perceive as 'good body image', we wallow in our own self-pity, saying that we are 'ugly' or 'fat', when really, someone else secretly wants to be us.

body image is one thing, but what a bad perception of our own body image can turn into is really frightening.

and yes, some people may actually do something about their body image - but is this always a good thing? in fact, sometimes if we try to change we are judged for doing so.

why has modern society made it so difficult to accept ourselves for who we are?

when did this happen?

when did what we look like become such a big issue?

shouldn't it be what's inside that matters?

so, the real question remains to be:

who do you see yourself as?