never ending

it's amazing how much can happen in a few weeks.
it's ridiculous how a few weeks ago can seem like a lifetime ago.
it's funny how you can go from everything being perfect one moment, to the world being turned upside down the next.
it's surprising that i still find this to be a new concept, after all; life is a rollercoaster, right?

the voice is a precious thing - i recently discovered this by doing the 40 hour famine: no use of the vocal chords. yes, it was a struggle, but not for the reasons you may think.
okay, there's the usual - of course it was so difficult not to talk, to have to write anything down or play charades when i needed something (the novelty wore off a lot quicker than i expected), and seeing as i randomly break out into song without even realising, it was very hard to control myself to stay silent for 40 hours.
but the real challenge? no voice meant no talking. no talking meant more thinking. more thinking meant over-thinking.
everything rushing through my head, silent laughing, silent thoughts, and silent pain.
and the rollercoaster continues.

it's never ending - even when we get off the rollercoaster for a moment, we step back onto it; in need of that adrenalin, in need of that happiness felt at the peak, completely forgetting about what is to follow.
and the rollercoaster continues.