never ending

it's amazing how much can happen in a few weeks.
it's ridiculous how a few weeks ago can seem like a lifetime ago.
it's funny how you can go from everything being perfect one moment, to the world being turned upside down the next.
it's surprising that i still find this to be a new concept, after all; life is a rollercoaster, right?

the voice is a precious thing - i recently discovered this by doing the 40 hour famine: no use of the vocal chords. yes, it was a struggle, but not for the reasons you may think.
okay, there's the usual - of course it was so difficult not to talk, to have to write anything down or play charades when i needed something (the novelty wore off a lot quicker than i expected), and seeing as i randomly break out into song without even realising, it was very hard to control myself to stay silent for 40 hours.
but the real challenge? no voice meant no talking. no talking meant more thinking. more thinking meant over-thinking.
everything rushing through my head, silent laughing, silent thoughts, and silent pain.
and the rollercoaster continues.

it's never ending - even when we get off the rollercoaster for a moment, we step back onto it; in need of that adrenalin, in need of that happiness felt at the peak, completely forgetting about what is to follow.
and the rollercoaster continues.

one small thing

isn't it funny, how one small thing - maybe an item, an event, or even a person - can completely change everything. it can make your day. make everything seem a whole let better than it did ten minutes before.
i've had quite a bit of that lately.

an item. the memories with that item. or even something new, that you know will be of great use to you. it's like when you clean your room. and i don't just mean clean, i mean spring clean; clean out your cupboards, wardrobe, and along the way, you find little things that you may have thought went missing, or that reminds you of "that time when.." - all things like that. just for a moment, you can escape. think about something different. be happy.

an event. something to look forward to. the knowledge that if something bad happens in your day, the time that you spend will make it better, even if it's only temporarily.
or even something that you don't know about. an unexpected surprise. it's only something ever so small, but you'd be surprised at how much better it can make you feel.

a person. a friend. someone who i can talk to about literally everything that's going on. someone that i trust - something i haven't had in quite a while.
i don't even think they realise it, but just the simple hello, once in a while, can make all the difference. hell, just recieving a wall post, phone call, or even a simple text message about the small details of life that you thought nobody cared about can make my day.
it sounds stupid, but it's true.

so i leave it there. and the message for this week is positivity.
think of those little things.
the things that truly make you happy.
and even if it's just for a little while - it's worth it, isn't it?